Tuesday, November 29, 2005

13 weeks

Second trimester - I'm so relieved!!! Today I feel funky, kind of like I have a rock in my lower abdomen. It doesn't hurt, just feels weird. Over the past week, sometimes my uterus will feel really hard, which I've heard is normal. Finding pants that fit this morning took a little time. I bought a scale today so I can monitor my weight gain. Ms Campbell said even 35 pounds would be fine since I was a bit underweight - I just want to make sure whatever I gain comes on slowly and steadily. I think so far I've gained about 5.
I really need to go bra shopping. I hate bra shopping. However, my bras are starting to get uncomfortably tight, even my bigger ones.
Thanksgiving went off fantastically. I had a cooking orgy all day and everything turned out delish. Yay! I made soooo much food. Ha ha Of course, Dh has polished almost all of it off already.
I think I'm going to tell my boss today or tomorrow. I'm nervous. Dh said I should be vague on the subject of working after the baby is born until after Christmas, so I don't get gypped on my bonus. Hmmm.
I puked this morning, but it was my easiest ever. That makes 7. I'm just glad the number's still low enough that I am actually able to keep track!
I thought of something positive that came from my miscarriage - I don't fret over the random pains I get, because I know what miscarrying feels like, so I just stop, observe the pain while it lasts, and then can dismiss it as what it is - random pain, and no cause for concern. (Usually gas ha ha) Miscarrying was the worst physical pain I have ever experienced, so I'm interested to see how it compares to labor. I imagine labor will be a more severe version of that pain.

Wednesday, November 23, 2005


This morning after I turned my alarm off and went back to sleep (yeah, that's a daily thing) I had an incredibly vivid dream that I was at church breastfeeding my baby son. Take that as you will.
I still have the tail end of my cold, but yesterday & today I suddenly have so much energy. I really want to go back to my pilates & yoga classes! Yeah! Adios first trimester. My muscles feel sluggish and out of shape. I have been slouching my way along, laying around being nauseous, but now I just want to get up and do something. What a fantastic feeling, after two months of yuck!

Monday, November 21, 2005

12 weeks

Counting down to trimester 2!!!
Full blown maternity pants being worn by moi.
Saturday Dh went skiing with his brother Jeremy. It was nice to have a day off to myself. I went shopping and wasted money on beauty products that hello I totally need. When Dh came back, he had had fun and had compared me favorably to Jeremy's wife. (Part of the reason I encourage him to hang with other guys - he always seems to come home so grateful that I am the way I am. ha ha)
This was not such a good weekend. Threw up twice. Friday's was really bad, I ended up with little red dots (the nurse said they are called petechiae) scattered all over my face, and lots and lots around my eyes. I hate them! Can't wait for this nausea to be over.
Of course all of this has been compounded by my cold taking a turn for the worse. Saturday towards evening I started feeling worse, but went to see Harry Potter anyway. By Sunday I was zombie girl and so I skipped church and just laid around all day. Today I'm at work, but just for a while.
It might sound weird, but I am really looking forward to making Thanksgiving dinner for Dh & me (I? myself? who freakin cares?). Plus it's just us, so I can make whatever I want (that means no yams!!!!).

Thursday, November 17, 2005

11 weeks

I am peeing a lot today. And yet am also so thirsty.
I really love my transition pants. Basically all of my regular pants fit if I am standing up, but as soon as I sit down, the waistbands become unbearably tight. So I just leave them unbuttoned, and then try to unobtrusively button them back up whenever I stand up.
Back at the beginning of October, when I found out I was pregnant, I told Dh we should keep it a mostly secret until Thanksgiving. It seemed so far away. Now it's next week, and my second trimester is only a week and a half away. Yay!
Last night I scored my flight to Orlando for $228 total. I am excited for this little vacation! Only 3 weeks away!

Monday, November 14, 2005

Seattle, April 2005

This photo makes me laugh every time. My husband might be the biggest goof on the planet - and he's so cute!

Sorry these photos are a bit old, but I'm sitting here at the computer (playing a mindless game, of course) so I thought I might as well upload a couple of photos.

Ultrasound, 10 weeks

The baby's upside down. And from this angle, looks kind of peanut-esque. Ha ha


My appointment on Friday was great, I am thrilled to report!!!!
I woke up 10 minutes before my alarm went off because I was very nervous. My appointment was so early, I don't know what I was thinking, but that was good I suppose, so that I didn't spend all morning fretting. We were only a few minutes late, but it didn't matter, because we still had to wait a bit. Dh & I chatted with the nurse for a while. Then Ms Campbell stuck her head in and said a long rambling paragraph (which I am starting to realize is how Ms Campbell always talks), the point of which was, "Let's do the ultrasound first so you will focus during the rest of the exam." (She was the lady I saw last time, so she certainly knows my history.) I was thrilled, it's what I wanted, but didn't want to ask. Dh asked if she read my mind. Ha ha
I was instantly seized by fear. What a relief when there was the baby! Perfect size, heart pumping away, waving its little arms! I cried of course. And held Dh's hand very tightly. (I will post the picture later - I'm at work, and didn't want to get caught downloading an ultrasound pic!) I was (am) on cloud nine. I am soooo happy. It's still surreal! It's amazing that this tiny baby, all curled up and only about an inch big, has little arms to wave at its parents!
Dh & I went out to breakfast, then wandered around Wal-Mart. Clarissa's son (whom Dh teaches at church) had a birthday party that afternoon. Dh had been invited, which is so cute. None of the kids in my church class invite me to their birthday parties! Ha ha So I went with, and showed Clarissa the ultrasound! She might actually be as excited as I am. Ha ha One of the ladies there was like, "You're 10 weeks and not showing a bit," and "Look at her, 10 weeks and thinner than I've ever been," which both kind of confused me. Why would I be showing so soon? I think she was just annoyed that I am thin. And I was even wearing my babystyle transition pants!
Though the truth is, I am starting to show the tiniest bit. Where my stomach was flat, it is now rounded. Not enough that anyone but me or Dh would notice, though.
Dh's parents stopped by for dinner on their way to the coast, for their first vacation (just the two of them). Can you believe that? Married 30 years, and never took a vacation by themselves. Sandy said it was pretty much because they were dirt poor when they got married, and baby #1 came along a year and a half later. Dinner (Sticky Chicken - new recipe I was trying - and not sticky - ??) was delicious, everyone loved it, especially Sandy & Greg. I was actually sad they couldn't stay longer. Dh gave them advice (as subtly as he could - which is not very) to not spend every moment together this week, or they will have disagreements. Sandy seemed to appreciate the advice. We'll probably call them towards the end of the week to see if they want to meet us for dinner sometime.
Yesterday I didn't have any real nausea until 7:30 pm! Yay!
My co-worker Elsa keeps bringing fried chicken into work for lunch. I think I'm going to croak. It smells soooo gross.
I am at work so I really should try to do something productive.

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Better Today

Sorry for dumping on all y'all yesterday. I was really frustrated. Today I'm feeling much better. It's amazing what chilling with my husband and a good night's sleep can accomplish!
Good news - I didn't have to eat a bowl of cereal before I went to bed, and I woke up feeling only the teensiest bit nauseous! My morning sickness is definitely waning! Ya-hoo!!! It still hits me every evening around 5, but it's less severe every day.
My first appointment is tomorrow. I'm mostly trying not to think about it. When I do, I can't even really visualize it, like I don't really believe that I'm pregnant for good this time. What I'm really trying to do here is insulate myself so that if it all goes bad like last time, it won't hurt as much. (Which of course wouldn't work anyway.) I'm hoping, praying that everything will be fantastic tomorrow. Say a prayer for me!

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

This is all a truckload of SHIZ

This is a horrible day. I'm sick, I'm tired (slept very badly), I have SO much work to do. Kevin's help: "You can work late." As in, I will approve your overtime. Yeah, thanks for freaking nothing, because I am not working late. Unless you want to see me puking in my trashcan because I'm trying to work through dinner. F that. I am getting NO support at work, and it is driving me crazy. The piles of work on my desk are all so tall, that I've had to start piling things on the floor. My filing is completely out of control, I have three cases on the verge of getting dismissed, some dip shiz client leaves me a voicemail saying, Can we reschedule my hearing, because I can't go. And another client asking for what TIME his docs were filed. As if he's getting a call back. Ha. And then Brenda drops a paper on my desk - the credit card bill, with $209.00 as my only clue and wants me to find out what it is! Do I look like your f-ing crystal ball Brenda? I need to go home and go to bed. I'm on the verge of tears. This blows.
I had been feeling pretty good, because despite the morning sickness, my hormones have seemed pretty controllable. Until today.

Monday, November 07, 2005

Riots in France

Rioting had been going strong in France for 10 nights before President Chirac even made a statement. Huh? C'mon American liberals, where's your outrage? Where are your sputters about an ineffective leader? Where are your clamors on behalf of the downtrodden? If this were happening in America, you would be climbing over each other to denounce Bush as an idiot. You are all conspicuously silent about Chirac and the mess that is modern France, while you continue to rant that America is imploding and despicably racist. Stop hating your own country. It's trendy, and it's disgusting.

Thursday, November 03, 2005

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

9 1/2 weeks (and not the nasty movie!)

My smallest jeans don't fit anymore. My booty is too large. Ha ha
I have committed to hanging out with Sister B tonight and I have nooo idea how to inconspicuously eat every 1-2 hours without her noticing something is up. Though she's eight months pregnant herself, so maybe that will prove distraction enough for her. She has three different due dates. I don't know how this always happens to her. If you average them all together, she's due in the afternoon on November 21. Ha ha I don't want to tell her yet about my news, because I love her to death, but she will tell everyone in Brush Hills, and my plan with Brush Hills is to sweep in 5 months pregnant and send everyone into a tizzy of delight.
Poor Princess still hasn't had her baby. Two days over. Everyone at work keeps asking me if I've heard anything (because I'm the designated work contact, or something). I left her a voicemail this morning, no response. She's probably going crazy. And might have already killed her husband. Ha ha